life

school..study...clinicals...stress...tired...going from one place to another...never getting a day to relax..always worrying about something...having some evenings with no one to just sit down and talk to in person....being away from family.feeling alone..seeing good people pass away..it sucks... :(
think for second...a year ago i didnt know what i wanted to do or where i wanted to be...a year later, today, i realized i have 5 more months until i finish what i have been working so hard for..
this past year i learned that your whole world can change in the blink of an eye....everyday you are given the chance to change something in your life..it can be something good or bad..he follows you through your journey and walks with you as your support when you fall..he lets you fall bc he knows you have the strength to get back up..he will be there to watch you fall..feel your pain...catch your tears...he will be the first one to smile when you pick yourself back up.dont give up and keep walking forward...walk forward with strength and let your weakness fall behind..
look at yourself for a moment..dont think about you failures..dont think about the hard times you're going through...where will that get you? look into yourself and acknowledge your achievements, your beauty, your ability to love you friends and family.think about your first day of kindergarten..your grandma walking you to school.your sisters hugging you..your brother squeezing you.your mom braiding your hair...the sneakers your dad got that lit up as you walked around...for once think about all of the good moments you have had in life before even thinking about the bad ones...dont be afraid to smile..and laugh openly...to cry out of happiness and not pain...think about those good times in life and let them be your strength while going through the bumps. remind yourself that your in control of your future...you can get through the bad times and enjoy the good...let him walk with you and never forget he's always there...remind yourself that the bad times can get washed away...and remember that you will hold on to the good ones forever...

my favorite

once upon a time i was in high school (a very longgg time ago)...i was always in my own little world with my friends and never gave anyone else attention..because i was too cool of course :)  there was a nerdy boy that lived down the street.he was a dork.like really. A DORKKK..after high school i went to a community college...and of course this dorky indian kid was there too..i thought he was so annoying.OMG i would be in the library trying to study..and he would be with all of his indian friends talking to loud...i wanted to throw a pencil at him and tell him to shut uppp..but of course everyone though i was a b word.i never gave them attention and always walk past that group of indians without looking or smiling.of course i did this bc i was too cool!!! haha jk jk..i was just shy and of course thats looked past these days!anyways this guy was just there and i never noticed him to be honest...who would have thought that five years later..two people that were always close but never talked..would end up together...and who would have though this dorky guy down the street would make me the happiest girl ever...
i cant even describe in words how he makes me feel...theres times when im just walking by myself and smile bc i think of him..he is always here for me when i need him..need a shoulder to cry on...when i need a good laugh..when i feel like arguing for no reason what so ever...he is always there and at the end of the day i feel like the luckiest girl to have a guy like him....
thanks for being there for me...thanks for sticking with me....for loving my family like they r u own...especially sukhman and the girls...thanks for giving me some of the best memories, laughs and crazy nights....thanks for NOT breaking up with me after i puked on your car (i just had to add that)...i just wanted u to know your the best and i love u very very much

sorry i had no picture of just me and you lol

BLAH BLAH BLAHHHHHHHH

anudeep kaur bains.born on June 10, 1988
Parents: Gurcharan bains and karamjit bains
Siblings:simerpreet bains, ruhpreet bains and sukhman bains
So one of my older sisters started a blog about her life/family and marriage and i thought it was a cool idea and decided to start one of my own. Most likely i wont get to keep up with it but i guess this is a start!  I wont talk about anything particular today but just cover the basics about me. hope u enjoy :)
My names anu and i am 23 years old. not married so i wnt have inlaw/kid/husband craziness to tlk about lol... i'm currently a student a SJVC studying to become a respiratory therapist.  I started this program in oct of 2010and i have 5 more months to go! man time flys when ur stuck at school..lol  I stay in natomas with one of my counsins and his wife and i am veryyy lucky to have family thats willing to let me stay while in school. Before i started school i didnt know anyone in the area and didnt have the most open personality. i was always to myself when it came to school and never went out of my way to meet new people.  I have always been super close to my sisters and cousins and never cared to have a big group of friends..which of course has its pros and cons.  But i do believe that coming out here helped me build my personality and i guess u can say i found myself.. i learned how to be around a group of people and make a complete fool of myself without worrying about what they would think...i finally made memories of my own, looking back at this past here and thinking about all of the little and big things that happened with friends makes me laugh and gives me a good feeling...although family is a very big and important part of life i learned that friends are just as important to have.
Its so hard to give a short descrption of my life because i feel like there is so much that has gone on! I'll start with family..I have two older sisters and a lil brother.. and i am very lucky to have them in my life and be close to them.  Growing up i always looked up to both of my sisters pt and simi and always wanted to be just like them...they are both such beautiful, smart and good hearted people and i have been blessed to have them as sisters..all of my friends thought i was cool bc of them, when they would pick me up from school, drop me off..let me stay in davis with them when they were in college..i got to experience so much and learn so much from them...of course i never even got close to being like them but that never changed the fact that i wish i was..they both went to UC's and made my parents proud and got married to two of the nicest guys..me on the other hand didnt go to a UC and i guess am the messed up kid as most people would think..i wasted years at a community college not knowing what i wanted to do.. i was in a relationship with a guy that didnt turn out good at all because he ended up being a pretty mean person.  he pretty much hurt me in the worst way possible and scared me for life.my second relationship was one of the hardest ones because it was one that runined my relationship with the rest of the family..it was to the point were i just isolated myself from the rest of my family and just wanted to be alone and avoid everyone else...i let this get in the way of my future and i let it hold me back so i dont blame anyone for my mistakes.and i blame myself for not making my parents as proud as my sisters did..but now i use my mistakes as motivation to one day hopefully make them proud.
My parents..wow two of the hardest working people i know...my mom is like super woman..she works takes care of her grandchildren..puts up with me and my mistakes...helps sukhman (my little brother) with school...and puts up with my dads craziness.and still only looks like shes 35..of course shes only 45 lol..my dad is also super crazy dad lol...he gave us everything growing up and even though i have out moments where i get so upset with him, at the end of the day he's still my dad.  he recently got into an accident where he broke his heal on one leg and tibia on the other...this has probably been one of the hardest times for my mom and family but we got through it and still are...hmmm someone told me once that god only puts you through things he knows you can get through....that SOMEONE will be brought up a little later..
SUKHMAN.oh man how can i forget about my little.mean.so random.brother....he's only 11 and i swear im so happy to have him around becasue although he constantly gets in trouble by all of us...he always finds ways to make us laugh...i can only pray that he has a happy future and i will do as much as i can to make sure he does...
wow this is so long and i feel like i talked about nothing!!!! i guess its a start :)